[me.ngi.dam] to crave, to long for, to yearn

I just had my first craving.
My first ‘mengidam’.
Quite an intense one which got me Googling for images of the item.
And my poor husband is frustrated because he can’t fulfill it for me…

I had a yearning for a fresh, hot Krispy Kreme doughnut.

*sigh*

After I forced that out of my head,
(“Silly woman. Macam takder benda lain ko nak mengidam!”)
I had ANOTHER craving.
Again it was intense, and again I resorted to Google.

Thank goodness there’s a Subway outlet in One Utama…

This afternoon, I’ll be wolfing down a foot-long seafood sub.

Can’t wait!

So, now I know that this whole mengidam thing is for real.
To those ladies who are scoffing right now and saying “Ah, mengidam ni ngada-ngada jer”,
I say “You tak mengidam? Good for you. But butt out of MY idamans, ok.”

Pregnancy is unique to each individual.
Some women are fortunate not to experience morning sickness
(Again, good for you, but butt out of MY nausea, ok)

I never thought I’d have a yearning for food.
Especially since the past few weeks I’ve been too nauseous to even think of eating.

But this mengidam thing is for real.
I actually wrote an e-mail to the Krispy Kreme website, asking them when they’ll be opening an outlet here in Malaysia.

There are three ingredients in the good life: learning, earning, and yearning.
Christopher Morley (1890 - 1957)

Worry is a misuse of imagination. Dan Zadra

I’m such a worrywart these days.

I worry I’m not eating enough.
I’ve no appetite to speak of. And sometimes, even the THOUGHT of food makes me nauseous. Aren't I supposed to be GAINING weight instead of losing it?

I worry I’m eating the wrong thing.
If unmarried women eat pineapples and drink 7-up after forbidden sex in order to induce a miscarriage, should I be avoiding these items?

I worry I’m not eating enough of the right thing.
In the 1st trimester, we’re supposed to have a lot of folic acid, hence the little pills my obgyn gave me.
But there’s a lot of folic acid in green veges too, but I’m not eating enough of that.
Should I then double my dose of folic acid supplements?

I worry about moving too much.
Every time I so much as move a little higher than ground level (i.e. climb a chair), I hear volleys of protest and remonstrations.
If I get a little hyper and start skipping (yes, yes, I know I’m old), I’ll hear the usual “Stop that! You’re pregnant!”.
We even have an aunt who, each time she sees us, she’ll remind us to ‘puasa’. “Pegang tangan jer... peluk jer... jangan lebih-lebih”.

I worry about moving too little.
My mom tells me I shouldn’t be lounging around so much (“Nanti baby malas”). And I wouldn’t want a lethargic baby.
I want a healthy, bouncy baby.
But I’M not allowed to bounce these days.

*sigh*

That's the secret to life... replace one worry with another....
Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000), Charlie Brown